Early on in
my Christian Life I constantly found myself struggling between wanting to be and
live like a Christian and wanting to live the life I used to live that was far
from being a Christian.
It was a
constant battle and I didn’t know what to do to resolve it. I would go to
church or watch a sermon on TV or listen to a talk on tape and I wanted to be more
committed to Christ. But then a friend would call and invite us to a party or to
a bar and I couldn’t wait to get there and I totally forgot about being a
Christian. And I lived the old way.
I felt torn
between two ways of life. It was like I was standing over a line with one foot
on either side of the line and I was being pulled in both directions.
I knew I had
to make a decision but either I couldn’t or I wasn’t willing to.
By being
around Christians who were more committed or mature in their faith I decided that
it was more important to be like Christ and that inner turmoil eventually left.
I wanted a
stronger relationship with Christ because of those people who were stronger and
more mature Christians. I wanted what they had, the relationship they had with
Christ, the relationships they had with their wives and families and the
relationships they had with others.
It was
because they knew Christ personally, they prayed, they read the Bible, they
attended church and they served others. They weren’t interested only in
advancing their own self-interest.
The following
excerpt is a good way to explain this.
‘James calls … this
condition being ‘double – minded’ (James 4:8). He describes such a person as
being like ‘a wave of the sea,’ driven by the wind one minute and backwards the
next (James 1:6). It is a life of divided loyalties.’
Most of us know what it
is like to be a wave on the sea. We are pulled toward this life of Christ, and
yet held back by a secret sin for which we haven’t been willing to renounce or
get help. We long for the adventure of following Christ fully, but we’re afraid
of the price. We commit to pleasing God alone, only to find ourselves driven to
impress others. We go back and forth. It is a miserable way to live.
In Jesus’
words, the secret to life is to pursue one thing. It is to seek first the
kingdom of God and his righteousness (Matt 6:33). It is an unbelievable relief
to be delivered from double – mindedness, to finally decide, to stop being
torn.’
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Excerpt from the book ‘Growth:
Training vs Trying’ by John Ortberg, et al. in the Pursuing Spiritual Transformation
series, pages 31-32
I encourage
you to seek God constantly to desire to be more like him, to associate with
Christians who are more mature in their faith and to do the things (Bible
reading, praying, associating, etc.) that will help you become a stronger
Christian. God has helped me.
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